Motherhood Loss

Pain rushes in, like a familiar but unwanted friend.

My heart ripped open, does this awful aching ever end

Why does motherhood strip my soul bare, it hurts so much to care

Protecting your child, an illusion. Can’t rise above this confusion

Agony, despair, drops me as I stumble
Pain, anger, hatred burns me tilI I crumble

A pile of smoking ashes from which I cannot rise

A deep ocean of pain in which all my happiness dies

No one ever told me love was so distressing, no one ever told me life was so depressing